Ishashi Buri!
Hoho first post in 2 months time. Who can beat that? Wahahahaha! Anyway, first of all, my apology to my visitors for the long lonely emptiness. Aiya you know la, come back Msia liao damn busy going out everyday. Especially for the month of December, filled with outings till I fell sick cause my body couldn’t take it LOL.
Well it kinda suck that I was down for a few days due to the sore throat and fevers and after that, cough for 3 weeks. Yes I know, long cough… irritating one, just wouldnt go off ZzZzZz. This post is totally random after my late shower, waiting for my hair to dry hehe! For those that have been talking to me should know what I’m up to lately =P And yes, at 4 a.m. in the morning, I’m still thinking out it. I guess this kind of things just get everyone thinking about it all the time isn’t it ?
For those that doesn’t know, too bad la… just read little bit and guess! I’m gonna rant abit about it. Everything was going accordingly till the plan got ‘damaged’ (not sure whether that’s the word to describe it.. but anyway…) and now I have to initiate Plan B. But then again, don’t know whether it will turn out fine or not because it’s entirely up to the opposite side to decide.
Some say this, some say that. What is it that I really wanna do or follow? I don’t know.. really. Have been like this for the past years, perhaps that’s part of the reason of me being who I am today. Someone’s been telling me that everything has its first time and you just gotta take the risk and go for it. Somebody else also said its alright to take some downcast and just bare with it. What exactly am I suppose to do?
I admit that I’m afraid. The fear of losing is so strong that I couldn’t even speak up to it. ‘What IFs’ favourite question to be asked whenever actions are to be taken. I’m so sick of myself being like this. Somebody tell me, somebody teach me, somebody GUIDE me through this shit…
SIGH…
